i am a medicine student. i have been in constant culture shock since i entered this god-forsaken institution three years ago. i made a very big mistake choosing this med school but unfortunately it is too late for me to undo anything. and there is no other way to go on but to stay here.
everyday since i got in, things, people, news and experiences started to slowly become things, people, news and experiences that collide with each other and make a terrible mess of my beliefs and thoughts.
today, despite my longterm pursuit to block off the unnecessary elements of this school that constantly try to infest my principles and crash my ideals, i would have to admit that there is just no end, not until i leave. there is no end of the line, no line across the sand, no last straw. as long as i put up with my dream of “making it”, i have to stay here; i have to take all the bullshit; i have to be hurt.
tomorrow, there’s more bullshit. grab an umbrella.